Lozen Fükem. Human.
This, her usual and official bio, is pretty straightforward. Universal even. Much like her art and artistic outlook, it speaks to a complex harmony.
Fükem, who is also co-owner of TEMPEST STUDIOS LLC, has succeeded as a visual artist. But that’s just one side of this artist. She’s also reached lofty heights as a writer, actress, producer, and director.
At home, Lozen Fükem homeschools her two daughters as well as pet parenting multiple rescue animals. She also fights for victims of human trafficking and domestic abuse, using her own experience to be the champion of those in need.
In honor of her art being featured in the December edition of Monesk’s art subscription service, we sat down with Fükem for a overview of her artistic vision.
Monesk: Why do you personally create art?
Lozen Fükem: Creating in general keeps my hands and my mind occupied. Drawing was something that became my “safe” space when I was younger as well as music. That carried me through until I was in high school and was replaced by drugs. It wasn’t until sobriety that I had reconnected with that part of my inner child and allowed her to surface that I began creating again to sustain my sanity.
Monesk: What inspired this piece, if anything?
Lozen Fükem: When I created this piece I had been working in graphic design and working with a therapist. I started cognitive behavioral therapy to better understand myself, my PTSD, depression, OCD, anxiety, body dysmorphia, and their triggers. I was drawing to relax myself and became annoyed by the end result. I had gotten really upset with my therapist because she had told me there was nothing ‘wrong’ with me. I didn’t know how that was possible considering everything I had gone through and how it effected me through out my life. I had been trafficked by my biological father, I couldn’t stand the sight of myself. I hated my body because of how it had been used against my will. I was a selective mute and put in a classroom with kids that had disabilities that did not match mine. All of these things changed who I could have been had I been born to a healthy environment. I was angry that I didn’t get to have that. What I was left with was a myriad of complexes that ruled every aspect of my life. I stopped drawing and started writing a letter to the therapist about how angry I was that I didn’t get that chance. I asked her why someone didn’t help me? Why didn’t someone save me? Why did I have to turn out like “this”? I was calling out my behavior patterns, patterns in my art. I was afraid of being diagnosed with autism. I was afraid. Scared. Questioning everything, even her. I cried the whole time while I wrote. When I was done I had layer after layer of pain, anxiety, fear scribbled on top of a design that was suppose to be for a client until I had my breakdown/breakthrough. I sent her the image anyways with a copy of the letter written on it. I don’t think I took a breath until she emailed me back. I thought to myself, “You’ve probably scared her off, she’s going to transfer me to someone else, why’d I have to do that”? She was the first therapist I had been real with. Her reply? She said it was beautiful. That this piece was what made me special. My ability to see things others don’t have me an advantage. My experiences created the unique individual I had become and it was at that moment that I understood what she had been trying to tell me that whole time. There’s nothing wrong with me, what was done to me was wrong. What I consider to be my consequential defects in reality are my strongest attributes. That sure, some people might not be committed to understanding who I am as an individual but remember to let those people go and surround myself with the ones who accept me for who I am as individual, to stop searching for acceptance. This“piece” gave me permission to live authentically. I needed that.
Monesk: Is there any theme or overarching aesthetic goal with your art?
Lozen Fükem: Not necessarily. It evolves. One minute I’m writing, the next drawing, and hour later I’m wood working or needle pointing. Sometimes the camera will be my weapon of choice. Really it just depends on what’s speaking to me and how I feel it should be represented
Monesk: How would you describe your style to a blind person?
Lozen Fükem: A hot mess but an adventure none the less. I love colors, lines, shapes, patterns. Repetition. The more layers the better.
Monesk: Who are your artistic inspirations?
Lozen Fükem: Life. Death. Everything in between.